Chiron'

Chiron'

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Ham-let

This is something I wrote with the release of Gibsons remake of Hamlet. Enjoy.



HAMLET


SHAKESPEARES SPIRIT DOTH ROLL IN IT’S GRAVE
AS CLOSE TO GIBSON AS A PRATTLEING KNAVE
GOD KNOWS WHAT HE MEANT WHEN HE WROTE THE PLAY
OH HAMLET , DEAR HAMLET, WHAT DECISION HAVE YOU MADE?
IS IT BETTER TO PLAY DUMB, AND TURN THE OTHER CHEEK?
OR WILL ZEUS & APOLLO FIND YOU A BIT TOO MEEK?
IS IT BETTER TO MAKE THE BEST OF THE DEAL
AND WASH CLAUDS BRIGHT SCARLET FROM YOUR SHINING STEEL?
YOU THINK OF THE WAY, YOU SHOULD BEHAVE
BASED ON THREADBARE CUSTOMS, OR SHOULD YOU SAVE
YOUR SOUL IN FORGIVENESS, MAY DAD FIGURE HIS PEACE
THE KINGS TORMENT OVER YEARS YOU COULD KEEP
BUT AS IT WAS WRITTEN YOU DIE IN YOUR SLEEP
NOT PAYING ATTENTION TO THE CHANCE OF DEFEAT
THUS JOINING YOUR FATHER IN ETERNAL TORMENT
YOU THRICE LET HIM DOWN NO CHILDREN TO CARRY ON
NO HEIR TO THE THRONE AND YOUR MOTHER IS GONE
AT THE RISK OF APPEARING QUITE RUTHLESS AND MEAN
I MENTION YOUR LOVE THAT YOU KILLED FOR A SCREAM
DIDN’T YOU CARE ENOUGH FOR HER TO GIVE HER A WINK
FOR THE NEXT TIME YOU SAW HER, WAS FACE-DOWN, IN THE DRINK?
AND WHAT OF HER BROTHER, SO YOUNG AND NAIVE
THE KING PICKED HIM WELL FOR HIS NEXT EVIL DEED.
ARE YOU SURE OH HAMLET IN BRIGHT SHINING LIGHT
THAT YOU DID HIM NO WRONG IN ACCEPTING THE FIGHT?
HAMLET OH HAMLET SO FULL OF THYSELF
DID YOU KNOW WHAT WOULD HAPPEN WHEN THY POKED IN THY SNOUT?

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Dog

AM I CAPTAIN OR AM I GRUNT
SPIRIT TO GUIDE ME, OR WILL I PUNT
THE BALL IN THE DIRECTION, THAT I AM TOLD
AND WHEN I KICK IT, WILL I BE GOLD
TO THE MAN, WHOMEVER, IT MAY BE,
WHO DRAGS MY LEASH WHEN I NEED TO PEE?

I AM A DOG FOR ALL SEASONS
I’M TAUGHT TO SIT, I’M TAUGHT TO BARK
I’M TAUGHT TO USE CAUTION, WHEN LEAVING MY MARK
I’M TOLD TO FOLLOW ALL OF THE RULES
AND WITHIN THE BOUNDRIES, I’M FREE TO CHOOSE
MY FATE
MUSTN’T PROCRASTINATE
IF I DO IT WILL BE TOO LATE
AND THEN I WON’T BE ABLE TO HAVE ANY CAKE
UNLESS I’M AN OFFICIAL ON THE TAKE
BETTER TO JUST SET THE DATE
CHASE $MONEY AND LEAVE DREAMS TO FADE
‘CAUSE MONEY IS SOMETHING GOOD TO YOU
AND DREAMS ARE JUST A PILE OF GOO.


IS LIFE AT WORK SOMETHING YOU HATE
OR CAN YOU WORK AND CONSIDER IT GREAT?
ALL I KNOW IS IN ORDER TO HAVE TIME
YOU MUST GIVE UP FORTUNE AND LIVE ON A DIME
AND IF PERCHANCE ITS MONEY YOUR NEEDEN’
THEN GIVE ALL YOUR TIME AND FORGET ABOUT FREEDOM.


Chiron’
Bad Labs©1992

Monday, March 3, 2008

Secret Agent's Dilemma

Doing the right thing.

Believe it or not...

human beings tend to always want to do the right thing. Usually, they do, too. It only becomes more difficult to make the correct choices, when those choices are counterbalanced by personal interest, or muddied by the confusion of trying to make choices for someone else’s “best interest”.

Once we allow ourselves to succumb to the temptation of making choices for someone else, even if it appears to be in their “best interest”, we are effectively eliminating that persons free will. If we take action to block someone’s free will, or through inaction, allow someone else’s free will to be lost, what would we really be doing? Can we honestly say that taking free will from another human being is the right thing to do? Sometimes the universe teaches us lessons in reverse. I’m referring to hardship. Doesn’t it follow then, that if a circumstance appears dire and we believe that someone is making the wrong choices, that to step in and make decisions that block or disallow that individuals free will is the wrong thing to do?

Beyond the consequence of obvious manipulation of the circumstance surrounding another human being, the REAL issue here is that in participating in such an event, we are basically displaying a lack of faith in the universe, or the Divine. We would be telling the Divine, “no, it’s okay God, I’ve got this one. I know what’s best for someone else, even more than you do.”

It is a curious question to think about. The evaluation of such a circumstance becomes further complicated by still other, even bigger questions.

When do I know the difference between feeling called to act, or participate in a particular situation, verses knowing when I should stand back and have faith that I am NOT intended to change the dynamic of a situation by my stepping in?

When do I do the “right thing” in the name of the Divine, and when do I simply leave a situation alone, and simply trust that if a situation exists, that it must exist for a reason that is unfathomable to me and that it is the intention of the Divine that the situation occurs at all?


Sometimes people make hard lessons. Sometimes it seems the Divine makes hard lessons.


I don’t know the answer to this question. It is a question I ask myself many times in the course of a month. For now, I have decided to use what my heart tells me to do. I believe if I keep my heart tuned into the right place, then it will guide me appropriately. Having said that, I prefer to let all Spirits KEEP their free will. I will find other means of nudging them back on the path if I am called to do so. I figure, that if I “head someone off at the pass” and make decisions that affect someone else without their participation, then I would effectively be a “highway robber” and I would prevent that Spirit from learning what they would normally learn if they choose a path I do not recommend. In the “spirit” of that quandary, I raise awareness of the crossroads, and leave you to choose your own path.

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Marathon

The Kite Festival


Well, all week long I’ve been feeling anxious and tense without knowing what was going on.

This morning, I woke up and finally it hit me like an avalanche of pain.

Today is the Kite Festival.

For me, it’s an anniversary of sorts. Something that I really loved that I shared with someone I really loved. Someone who didn’t love me back.
I would love to be able to go, but I can’t. It’s still too painful. It’s incredible how something so innocuous can sneak up on me and just totally wipe me out with emotion.

I have been doing so much better lately, and now I feel like I have to start all over again. At times like this it feels like I will never escape this pain. Maybe the feeling will pass.


The magnitude of emotion that I am experiencing is really unbelievable. So powerful as to be able to seemingly wipe out all the sense of progress that I have made. It is able to minimize all of my accomplishments while maximizing my sense of futility, loss.


Lately it feels like my heart has been going through an obstacle course, and it hasn’t been doing very well. My tears blind me to what is up ahead. True to my nature, whether I clear the hurdles or not I keep going. It’s the only thing that I really know. . To just keep going. Like the stitch of pain in the side of a runner, the pain and emotion tries to disable me. Just keep going. Ignore the bloodcurdling screams of pain from within. Just keep going. Ignore the feelings of weak exhaustion and hopelessness. Just keep going. I have no understanding of where my destination lies, or why I find myself in this race. Just keep going. Eventually the pain and the run become one. Just keep going. Just keep going. Just keep going.

“Don’t Stop.”